A Little Bit of This...A Little Bit of That...

Isn't that what life feels like sometimes...for some reason I used to feel like I had time for it all!!  Lately...I feel like I catch a little bit of this, and a little bit of that...

So I thought I'd share :)

My kids are so sweet.  In my world...a dandelion is a flower ANY day of the week.  There is nothing more precious than me sweet kids saying "Mommy...HERE!!!"  Mostly my littles...Blazer and Romy, but even Parker will collect them for me :) I hope I never forget their bright excited faces, and I've enjoyed weeks of it ;)

On to traditions...we have a tradition that began with Carter, and is now trickling onto the younger boys.  The last day of school, he can pick ANY hairdo he chooses...He has chosen the same "doo" for the last couple of years, and frankly...I find it AWESOME.  He is usually a completely mellow, analytical, "observe everything" kind of a kid....but he had been growing his hair for months to get the PERFECT hawk for the last day of school!!  Last year we had to leave it for a few days because of a terrible burn he received on his poor head, and this year, I thought...what the heck...he can let it hang for a while...but Brian cracked come Sunday, and couldn't let him show up that way :)  He's always telling me to just let him sport it...but he cracked this time!! LOL

(OH...notice how Oakley is almost as tall?? P.S. She can steal my shoes now too...talk about scary!  And we wont even get into the pre-adolescent tude we're starting to see....ay yay yay!!!)

Well...the last bit of "bits" that I want to share is Fathers Day.  I'm not one for cliche gifts...in fact...I do everything necessary to avoid them, or receive them...I don't know why.  I feel like if I give a "typical" gift on a "typical" holiday...then it doesn't mean anything...

 I broke my own rule.

I gave my husband a grill.

Our FIRST grill....well, that is unless you count the one that someone once gave us that never worked that we stored in our backyard for several years ;)

I'm sure you can see how this went over!!

The Main Attraction...

I'd say pretty well...maybe cliche isn't so bad?? 

It definitely worked out for me..."Happy Fathers Day!!!!!...now cook us dinner" ;)  Don't worry, I cooked most of it, but saved the fun grilling part for him...and even invited the fathers in town to dinner...it was nice!
I guess the moral of the story is that if you put thought and heart into something...then it doesn't really matter what it is...the intention will be received...

Happy Sunday!!!

Box of Sunshine...

Well, as some of you may know...I've been going through...STUFF...

I haven't been feeling very well for a while now.  Weird symptoms, like extreme leg swelling, even more extreme fatigue, shakiness, skin and hair problems, swallowing problems....and the list goes on...

It's pretty fun...

Well, my family doctor has been great.  He is the one that found Romy's brain bleed in a matter of days, and he instantly took me seriously as well....he tested my kidneys, liver, thyroid, and several other things...

Nothing came back unusual...

He said he has had a few patients with my same symptoms that had thyroid cancer, so he sent me off to get an ultrasound, and sure enough, I had 5 tumors. 

But they couldn't tell by an ultrasound whether they are cancerous or not, so they sent me in to do biopsies. 

I have to say, I haven't been freaked out by this at all.  I'm not welcoming bad news or anything, but I have just been going along, doing each procedure.  I told Brian I'd be fine, and that I would just go alone to the procedure.  One of my super closest friends wouldn't allow it. In fact, she may have thought I was a little crazy...

I don't blame her...

She INSISTED on coming with me...and this is after staying up until all hours to see the premier of Hunger Games, and then having to drive 30+ minutes on practically ZERO sleep...

She's basically my hero...

I still thought I was fine.  I'm glad she had enough sense to know I wouldn't be though.  Her poor hand probably throbbed with pain by the time they were done.  They went in seventeen times, and each time they would reposition the needle in the tumors TRYING to get something to biopsy.

It was a fail...

And on top of it...It was one of the most painful things ever.  Took me out for the rest of the day!!  She luckily drove me home, and even stayed a few hours to help with my kiddos while I literally cried in my bed...

It was rather pathetic on my part...

I think it all finally hit me, and I was a little scared. I still have to go into a radiation specialist...supposedly they specialize in tumors, and have better equipment.....sounds to me like MORE PAIN...



When she left, she had put a box on my counter, and asked me to open it later. 

It was a BOX OF SUNSHINE!!!!!

"You need some sunshine"

and she put in the box:

YELLOW PEANUT M&MS

YELLOW POPCORN FLAVORED JELLY BELLIES (my fav)

YELLOW BANANA SPLIT SUCKER

YELLOW STARBURSTS

SUPER CUTE YELLOW NECKLACE

LEMON HEADS

BUTTERSCOTCH CANDIES WITH SMILIES DRAWN ON THEM :)

YELLOW CANDY NECKLACE

JUICY FRUIT GUM (also yellow...of course!!)

YELLOW REECES EGGS

YELLOW FINGERNAIL POLISH!!!

LEMON PIE...YUMMMM

YELLOW PEEPS

THEN...under all of that, she wrote:

"After the rain comes the sun, but after the sun comes a rainbow"

And there was a whole bunch of my favorite colorful candies...SIXLETS

I BAWLED LIKE A BABY....

I felt so cared for, and thought of.  It was seriously the sweetest thing ever!!! How lucky I am to have all the friends I have...who care for me so much!!

Sometimes...all you need is just a box of sunshine...!!!

School Schmool...

Am I the only one that DREADS school projects??  The kids come home announcing their next big assignment, and I feel like I'm back in high school or college procrastinating as much as I can... 

SIGH...

I'm just not a huge fan...lets just put it that way...

Here is one of the most recent "fun" projects.  The teacher even excitedly explained it to me.  It's one of her favorites each year.  Would it have been totally out of character for me to say,"please, just shoot me in the face" or something...?? DON'T PANIC.  I would never do either, and yes, it's a bit extreme, but it may have briefly grazed the thoughts of my brain...just briefly though...

WELL FOLKS, 12 hours later...YES 12....here is our final product.  She wanted this scaled to size as best as possible, and done creatively of course.  This thing is pretty big.  It was 12" X 24" or something of the sort... I present THE SOLAR SYSTEM

Carter Lords

4th Grade

Mrs. Oldemeyer

Good job Carter!!! ;)

Out of Focus...

I don't know if you've noticed, but I've felt "Outta Whack" for a while.  Thankfully, I think things are coming around...but I was worried for a while that I wouldn't snap out of it...

I lost my blogging happy too...

I wanted to, and still thought about doing it all the time...but just couldn't bring the determination to the surface.  It just faded into nothingness...obviously...!!

Well, I miss it.  I miss talking about my day.  Recording my feelings...but mostly...I miss REMEMBERING!!!  I love looking back on my posts, and laughing, and crying, but mostly feeling!!

And there it is...I wasn't feeling...I was floating. So to speak...

Do you ever feel like that...that instead of swimming in life, you are just seeing where the current takes you??  Sometimes, I am sure it is a good thing...for a while it was...but then I realized that I had to swim...

I know...analogies..

I have a problem with it...

but you'll get over it...

Because this is my blog, and that's how I am!!!

Well, I am so glad that my life seems to be coming back into focus.  Things are clear.  I can see each leaf on the tree again, and not just the general object....and that feels good!! 

THE MORAL OF THE STORY:  Life will continue whether you know how you want it to go or not...you have to make the choice to sink or swim, cause floating gets you nowhere...

I choose to swim...

I need the workout anyways ;)